Post by Witchbell on Apr 9, 2017 14:40:10 GMT
Greetings everyone. I currently go by the name Witchbell and occasionally Nynxed. You will remember me as Starprincess, perhaps Curus or Puppet if you were around for the more stressful times. I'm an easy going person living in central New York, though I'm sure "Easy going" isn't something former memories would accurately describe me as. Back then I was a dependent person simply following the directions of my family. Living with my father at the time, it was a stressful environment which I endured simply because I was afraid of being on my own. I was raised basically being told what to do and acting on my own in the world scared me. I guess I was never forced to think on my own and make my own decisions. After high school I was just sorta dropped off to my father like I was a problem that no one felt they needed to deal with anymore. I was pretty depressed, fearful and due to my vitamin D deficiency I was always lacking in energy causing me to react to stress very poorly.
Who am I now? I'm on my own now, well with a roommate I met at my current job. I've become more confident in my decision making after avoiding the doctor for so many years, finally have the means to deal with my Vitamin D issue. I have a lot more energy and with a comfortable environment, I've become a more calm minded, decisive person. Though I still feel behind the times. I don't like comparing myself to other people but when I look at my former friends from my high school days, I feel that i'm years behind them. It's all because of a problem i've yet to solve. I don't have any goals, dreams or interests that guides me to progress. I'm moving aimlessly into nowhere, I feel. There isn't anything I can think off that I could say I wouldn't part with. I'm a person that simply wants to be happy and live a less stressful life. I'm looking for a purpose that I feel I can dedicate myself too. Perhaps to something or someone. I've slowly been discovering a dream, a desire that I didn't notice in my former years. I don't consider it visible enough for me to follow but overtime I think it may be worth pursuing in the future. I seem to have a strong desire to create something. Something that could assist people in the future and something people can remember me by when I'm gone. I guess I don't want others to feel the way I currently feel. Lacking any passionate drive, feeling alone, waiting and wondering when time will finally run out. I guess one day I will finally find something to grasp for. Till then I'll just do what I know I love to do, pour energy into my creative exercises. It will feel good to Roleplay again. Imagination is a powerful tool which should be loved and cherished.
"Let's have some fun and make some great memories together."
Who am I now? I'm on my own now, well with a roommate I met at my current job. I've become more confident in my decision making after avoiding the doctor for so many years, finally have the means to deal with my Vitamin D issue. I have a lot more energy and with a comfortable environment, I've become a more calm minded, decisive person. Though I still feel behind the times. I don't like comparing myself to other people but when I look at my former friends from my high school days, I feel that i'm years behind them. It's all because of a problem i've yet to solve. I don't have any goals, dreams or interests that guides me to progress. I'm moving aimlessly into nowhere, I feel. There isn't anything I can think off that I could say I wouldn't part with. I'm a person that simply wants to be happy and live a less stressful life. I'm looking for a purpose that I feel I can dedicate myself too. Perhaps to something or someone. I've slowly been discovering a dream, a desire that I didn't notice in my former years. I don't consider it visible enough for me to follow but overtime I think it may be worth pursuing in the future. I seem to have a strong desire to create something. Something that could assist people in the future and something people can remember me by when I'm gone. I guess I don't want others to feel the way I currently feel. Lacking any passionate drive, feeling alone, waiting and wondering when time will finally run out. I guess one day I will finally find something to grasp for. Till then I'll just do what I know I love to do, pour energy into my creative exercises. It will feel good to Roleplay again. Imagination is a powerful tool which should be loved and cherished.
"Let's have some fun and make some great memories together."
